Expire
by: me

I sink deeper
slip seethe soak mire
this little pill
that's suposed to cure
my little ill
seems to have
let itself expire
My pie graph of life
zero zip zilch none
I am scratching my skin
trying to cure
the itch within
I tear the flesh
and come undone

I am teetering
weak weary worn frowning
My smile reaches for
every closed and locked
impossible door
while my heart
sinks, drowning

I dont know
what I am looking for
maybe I've looked so long
that my eyes have worn out
maybe I am really
something
or nothing

I mean maybe
I am about
to find a new path
a new journey
a new cure

My jaw is stretched
from the pulling
I've been hooked
by each shiny tiny lure

I want to know
what will set me free
so I dont have to cry
so I dont have to try
try
try
try
try

(sigh)

I am tired
and my inner girl
is angry
she rants
she chants
she tells me
I am unworthy
she tells me
I am dumb
I listen
I listen
and
I am numb
from the pain

Prozac turned the tears to a stone
and turned it up on one side
and now
there is a perfect place
for that angry beast to hide
she shoots out
bullets from her
new fortress
unseen

pretty
deadly bullets
shiny and clean

she says things true
she says things obscene.

I want to
find
my
happy
serene.

I sink deeper
slip seethe soak mire
this little pill
that's suposed to cure
my little ill
seems to have
let itself expire

My pie graph of life
zero zip zilch none
I am scratching my skin
trying to cure
the itch within
I tear my flesh
and come undone